If you are feeling really low right now, or wanting to harm yourself in any way, please call 000 immediately. Even if you’re not sure if it’s that bad, it is ALWAYS better to be safe than sorry. They will be able to point you in the right direction :)
If you just need a bit of advice or support, contact the beyondblue Support Service (1300 22 4636), Lifeline (13 11 14) or the Suicide Call Back Service (1300 659 467).
If you are ok for now, just read on.
Breathe. Just breathe. Know that you are loved.
Know that this pain will pass.
Know that there is untold happiness waiting just for you…
I know the deep sadness you are feeling right now, and how much you want to make it go away. Have faith, and hold on to the words I am about to tell you.
I have been where you are now, and I know that feeling where every amount of happiness seems to have drained from your life. Sometimes it can be in an instant, like the moment your heart gets broken by the one you thought would love you forever. Other times it can dissolve so slowly you didn’t even realise it was happening. Finally one day you find yourself standing there, telling your lonely, and broken-hearted Self, “all I have to do is stop, and I won’t have to feel this pain anymore”.
But this way isn’t for you, dear one. This is not how your story ends, and it would be the greatest tragedy of all if it did. You are beautiful, you are powerful, and you have everything you need to get through this moment of pain. You have a story and purpose that is far stronger than the heartache you feel now; it is just momentarily hidden from your view. Trust that it is there, and that you will feel true happiness again.
The Universe does not present challenges like the one you are facing now, without providing every amount of strength, and courage we need to get through it at the time.
While you don’t feel strong right now, it does not mean that you will feel that way forever. Just break everything down into manageable moments to allow yourself to work back up to it. Take it real slow, and deal with what’s right here, right now. Find a safe place, and just breathe. Breathe through this second, and then the next, and then the next; that’s it. Eventually you will feel stronger to take things minute-by-minute, hour-by-hour, and day-by-day. But don’t stress - You don’t have to do it all right now; you’ll get there all in good time.
You have such strength within you that for whatever reason is dormant or in need of help right now, and sometimes the people and experiences in life can make us forget we have any at all. The way you are feeling is a result of a range of factors that you don’t have all the information about right now…But you will eventually.
What you need right now is a little help, and the ability to take a load off for a while. Call one of the numbers listed earlier, or your Doctor, or even a trusted friend. There are many avenues for you to receive help – all you have to do is reach out for it. We can’t always be on-point; sometimes you’ve got to relax that brilliant mind of yours. We always have so much to stress about in life, and the pain of a breakup is just part of the mix. Yes, it hurts so desperately; but it is nowhere near the profound despair of not having a phenomenon like you in the world. You are loved more than you can ever imagine, and you will make your mark in this life. The light you shine on the world will be a sight to behold.